Times have changed.

I haven't been here for a long time. In more than one way.

I moved out of home 4 weeks ago. I'm living in a house with 160 other people, and loving it. Mainly. Somehow I still spend most of my time alone.

I'm in a degree. The one I dreamed of. Which isn't as perfect as I thought, but then again, are things ever exactly what we dreamed?

I've met so many people, been in so many situations and had experiences that would have terrified me to the point of nausea in the past. Sometimes you have to bite the bullet and stand up for yourself, and boy am I getting good at it. Pushover I am no more.

I've got my P's. I own a car. One I barely drive, but hey. She's my baby.

I miss my dog terribly. I miss having her warm little body by my side in the evenings.

Wow, that's a lot of I's. Let's finish this post with something slightly less introspective.

Despite the distance and the struggles, he is still the best thing that's ever happened to me.

After all this time?, you may ask.

My response?

Always.

After An Afternoon..

I bare my windowed self untamed and untrained
Dreams that hardly touch our complexions truest faults
If room enough for both my drowsy spirit shall fall
Bold waves tumble to the season of my heart
You have offended my faith and my trust
Until all is lost into the beauty of the day
Until all is lost
And I think it's lost

And there's something in the way you laugh
And it makes me feel like a child
Aspects of life they confuse me
You and your thesis amuse me
After an afternoon with you...
And your rich brown eyes
Your lips and dark hair
Elbows and exposed knees tossing toward your ceiling
After an afternoon

Face to palm
Tear to tear
And
Mouth to tongue
Heart to ground
Heart to ground
Say, "I am in love"
Say, "Heart to ground"
Say, everything
Oh, Heart
Oh, Heart
Oh, Heart to ground
I am in love

Another beautiful, meaningful and inexplicable tune from the magical Mr Mraz. How I love him.

xx

Ramblings :D

Things are looking up.

Uni is fantastic. So glad I accepted the offer for the Foundation course.

It looks like I have an interview for Sovereign Hill sometime soon. Fingers crossed, cos my current job at the sushi joint only pays $10 an hour, and hasn't given me work for the past 3 weeks.

Friends- wonderful.

Boyfriend- wonderfuller.

Life: Generally excellent. Despite my fortnightly bouts of depression about class and people.

Blog: neglected. Sorry folks.

xx

Now waaaaaaait a minute!

Screw that Arts thing. I don't want to be a psychologist, who was I kidding?

I got a second round offer on Friday.

For the foundation improvisational music course at the Victorian College of the Arts and Music.

Not a degree, but a year of tuition surrounded by some of the top musicians in the state, designed to bring me to a standard to be able to compete for a place in the top music schools around.

Excuse me when I say...

FUCK YES!

2011

I have not posted for a long time.

Much has happened since I last wrote, followers.

-I turned 18. What a day and night, chilling with the family... and being serenaded by a choir of cousins singing a composition I wrote when I was three. How amusing/embarrassing.

-I went to a party. A proper house party, with drinks and loud music and lots of people. It was awesome. Yeah, I was a sheltered child, almost totally sober and law obeying, what of it?

-I got a Woody doll for Christmas, and Toy Story 1, 2 and 3 on DVD. I'm over the moon, I mean what? Ugh, that's so uncool, I'd never admit to enjoying such presents...

-I discovered some terrible news, none of it affecting me directly, and helped ones I love to cope. I like feeling like I've done a good deed, and those were some of the best ones I've done lately.

-I got accepted into Uni. An Arts degree, majoring in Psychology, at the University of Melbourne. My 4th preference. I was devastated when I first found out, but now I've warmed to the idea. I think I'll like being an Arts student, though I need a new wardrobe, these kids are far too fashionable D:

Anddd I can't think of anything else I've done. There were so many good times, I swear!... I need a calendar, and a diary. Must remember all those precious little moments, they're what make life worth living :)

Love always, my dears

xx

Stick a fork in me,

82.95.

It's funny how one little number can make you either so unbelievably happy, or so depressed.

I am one of the former group. :D

I'm totally thrilled with my score. It's something I can be proud of. :)

Now I only have to catch up with my buddies, then I'm off to NSW. 5 days to go.

I'm loving the internet while I can, cos I'll be going on my annual no computer summer.

3 weeks without facebook? This could be hard.

So yeah, if you want to contact me, text me.

With all my love,

Emilairy xx

A is for the way I act with you

All this tension is killing me.

All I want from the next week is a good time. Is it too much to ask for?

At least I won't be home. The parents are worse than my friends sometimes. My friends don't stress over every little detail of my auditions, or complain about my laziness, or my grades.

Anyway. I'm tanned, I'm almost packed, and I'm excited.

Adieu!

xx